Welcome back guys and gals, you wild internet people to this blog. I've been on a hiatus of sort, a year long break from, well most thing, but I'm back now and I already have a few things planned out and some things to share.

So let's start from the beginning.

Well not the very beginning.

My name is Kat, I'm 24 and from Sydney. I spent the last three years as a drama student and trying hard to find myself. And in finding myself I changed. From the person I used to be, a person I strongly disliked inside and out, to a more confident and more all together person. 

But in those three years I also learnt that I still have a lot of changing to do. To be the person I need to be, and I need figure out myself and my life along the way.

Being in a new city for those three years changed my perspective on life and who I was. 

It made me want to be a better person.

It made me more independent.

It made me find my self worth.

It made me see things a little clearer.

With all of this I have taken my first year out of uni and back at home, learning from the mistakes of my past and living life to its fullest.

So this is where the change in my blog starts. I will be keeping all my old posts and adding new material from my life and adventures from here on out.

Welcome back and enjoy.

Dream big.

xxx Kat

The future is...

One question that I get asked way to often is what I plan on doing after uni. And in all honesty I don't really know. I know that some people have a set plan on how they are going to do things once they graduate. But I have never really been one of those people.

But I think that it's okay not to know what you are going to do after uni or after school.

It's a big thing to ask of a person. Almost like once we finish high school or university, we have to decide on the spot.

So once again I don't know what my future holds.

And that is hella scary.

But I know that I will figure it out along the way. Which doesn't really sound like a solid plan, but it's what I personally am comfortable with. Which is strange considering I hate change. And the unknown. But I know that I will be able to do whatever it is with a certain level of nervous excitement.

Does that scare the crap out of me? Of course it does. It always will.

But I know that I will find my rightful path, whatever it may end up being. 

And I know that once I am there I will be happy and content.

Just know that not everyone knows what they want to do with their life. Most of us are just fumbling through, trying to make a life that we feel is good, for ourselves. 

Never loose that fear of the unknown, especially when it come to the future, because it is what will drive you to achieve what you want.

xx Kat

Sometimes I wish life would just slow down.

Welcome to one of possibly many late night ramble posts from me this month. This going to be a stream of consciousness type of thing.

Right now I haven't had anytime today to plan a post, what with being sick and the mountain of uni work that constantly sits in the corner, nagging at me that it needs to be finished.

So this is what leads me to today ramble. How I wish that time would slow down.

I almost feel like there isn't enough hours in the day for me to finish all of the work that I have planned for the day. Like the list magically grows, without me adding anything to it. I feel like time just flies by, and then I realise that I have only put a tiny dent in any to-do list.

If time could slow down I would be able to enjoy the small moments and appreciate the little things. I would be able to finish any work I have to a satisfactory level and not have to stress out about running out of time.

If time could slow down I would be able to get over this flu, without making it worse by not resting and constantly being on the go.

I currently have no time to rest, and yet procrastination is my best form of avoiding any work I have to complete. Like time and my mind are battling for my sanity and the part of me that doesn't want to do any work at all is winning. Slowly.

Life is just a series of moments, and those moments slip away faster that you sometimes wish.

So that was just one late night ramble thought that has been on my mind lately.

Whilst blogging is currently a form of procrastination, it's not one I'm mad about.

xx Kat

Just a small update.

It has been a while I know. I have many excuses that I could make for my being away, but the reality is I was just out living life, working and enjoying my holidays.

Now the summer is almost over and I am heading back to uni, for my last year. I will be doing things and having fun. I will be trying hard to complete my work and finally finish my studies. 

So here is a little update just to get us started again.

I have spent the summer months working away. It is practically all I did on my holidays, which is kind of what I wanted to do, and on my days off all I did was sleep and be lazy. I got to spend my days with dogs and animals, just being comfortable and at peace with life.

I took chances in life and did things that I had wanted to do for a while, like dyeing my hair. 

I spent time with people who made me happy and made friends with new people.

It has just been a pleasant summer. 

I hope everyone is well. And I hope to see you all soon.

xx Kat

It's a new year.

Holy crap, it's a new year. I can hardly believe that 2015 has ended and 2016 has begun. I know I am a little slow on the new years post, but I just needed to get myself to sit down and write this out. 

In a way I am glad that 2015 is over. It means that all the bad things that happened last year can be washed away and all the good times can be remember fondly. Its also a time for change and to begin being a new person, to better myself. 

So in the idea of changing for a new year, and bettering oneself, I thought I would share some of my goals for the new year with you all.

1. Read more new books

2. Say YES to more opportunities

3. Write more/blog more

4. Learn to enjoy life for the little things and appreciate them

5. Be more creative in everything I do

6. Make healthier life choices for myself

7. See more of the world

8. Try something new every week

9. Learn new and interesting things

10. Be positive

Hopefully I will be able to stick to these and make life more enjoyable and fun for myself as the year goes on.

This year is a rather important one for me. It is my last year of university (yikes) and that means that I need to get myself organised and figure out what I am going to do with myself when I leave the comfort of university. Creating and finding opportunities for myself and my future. Which is an idea that scares me more than I sometimes would like to admit.

I also plan on making some changes here, and I know thats not the first time I have said that, but this time I plan on keeping that promise. I have a couple of regular post ideas that I would like to start doing monthly and sometimes even more often than that. Things that I want to be able to keep up and continue on as the months go by. In the aim of furthering this blog a little.

I want to be able to share  more exciting things with you guys this year, and getting myself more out there. 

I hope you guys are ready for what lies ahead, and I hope that the year that lies ahead of us, is an exciting one at that.

xx Kat

June/July photo round up

Now that August is almost over I find it almost pointless for me to blog about things that happened in June/July and give them their own blog. I know I have been kinda slack. 

So I thought that I would put some of the photos I took up on the blog, even though they are not getting their own post. Just because they are getting in the way, and if I don't post them now I probably won't ever.

Here is a quick round up of things that I did in June/ July that would have had their own posts at the time, but don't now because I have forgotten what happened most days.

Enjoy!

Taco Tuesday

My all time favourite Mexican restaurant opened up an establishment here in Melbourne, and I was super excited about it. So we headed out to The Beached Burrito Company in Fitzroy and enjoyed some marvellous tacos.

The 10 hour drive

Heading back to Sydney by car takes a hell of a lot of time. Luckily I had a good friend with me and we passed the time by having a massive singalong to Taylor Swift (our personal queen) for the entire trip.

Some pretty skies

Early morning winter skies on my drive to work.

Return to Melbourne

Once again the long drive, accompanied by my wonderful uncle and aunt.

Can you tell I like nature shots.

Footscray Community Arts Centre

Visiting my cousin at work and stumbling upon their current (at the time) exhibition called What Lies Buried Rises. Which was a beautiful collection for NAIDOC week at the centre. 

Gertrude Street Projection Festival

A festival that celebrates projection art. Using familiar buildings of the street and projecting art pieces on them. 

Hopefully from this point on I will be more up to date with my posts and won't log a large collection of picture meant to go up, but not actually going up when intended.

xx Kat

Let's play catch up: The best friend visits.

Hey guys,

So my next couple of posts are going to be a catch up sort of thing. Whilst I was drowning I took photos of things that I wanted to share with you guys, but never got around to putting them up online. 

So lets get started!!!

I was lucky enough to have my best friend since preschool, come visit me in Melbourne and drive back to Sydney with me for my holidays. 

She hadn't been to Melbourne in a few years, so I got to show her around the area I live and around the awesome city that I now call home. 

It was awesome seeing things I had seen before with new eyes and even finding some really interesting things around the city that I had never seen before. It was like discovering the city all over again for the first time.

We had no real plans for this day, just wondering around the city and seeing what we could find (and what we could buy *cough* H&M sesh *cough*)

Airport waiting.

We drooled over cakes in windows, walked down lanes full of adventure and found some interesting looking shops and cafes. 

My personal favourite being 'The Haunted Bookshop', a place that I want to go back to and explore.

We walked down the many lanes filled with graffiti, whilst admiring the many different pieces of, interesting, art on their walls. 

Friendship goals achieved. 

What I love about this city is its uniqueness. It has a strange individuality to it that makes me want to create and explore it further. Showing someone new to it all was wonderful, seeing them find all of the hidden gems that this city holds. 

What is your favourite city and why? Mine is obviously, so far, this one.

xx Kat

I was drowning.

Hey guys,

I have had trouble posting over the past month and a half and I am not entirely sure why. I know that I originally was drowning under a mountain of uni work, which happens at the end of a semester. But I just felt like I was drowning in every aspect of life. I went on my holidays, but then it still felt like I was stuck.

I spent six weeks working and trying to figure out what was stopping from blogging and from doing many other things. And if I am totally honest with you, I am still not sure what that road block was exactly.

But I somehow I have moved past that road block and am now able to function to the rate that I was before. 

I am back.

Hopefully.

I have a few blog posts that I want to put up, a few things that I actually did over my holidays, when I wasn't working. I am now back at uni, and hopefully the drowning feeling won't appear again anytime soon.

I plan on catching up on all the missed time that I spent not blogging over the past month.

I love you all.

xx Kat 

A letter to my 16 year old self.

With my official turning of 22 having happened I thought today I would write a letter to my 16 year old self. 

So here goes.

Dear 16 year old Kat,

Right now you are probably sitting in one of your 11th grade classes, daydreaming about getting out of the classroom and having grand adventure in the great big world, something that you still do to this day.

Hold onto that dream, it will lead you to trying new things and even making the biggest decision of your life so far, which is moving away from home to study at University, something you never thought you would do. 

There are so many things I wish I could tell you, things that you keep you safe and protected for some of the oncoming tough times that you are yet to experience. I wish I could tell you about the people who will eventually let you down and those who you no longer trust at all, even if you wouldn't believe me. Sometimes even I don't believe what some of things are, and they have already happened to me.

But let me tell you this is does get better, no matter how silly that sounds, it does.

Eventually we make the right choices, ones that are good for ourselves, even if it takes that one final push, we make some hard decisions, but they are the right ones.

Firstly don't let people push you around and tell you what to do, or how to act. Also don't let people tell you what to like/what not to like. These people aren't important in the long run and are not good for you. 

Eventually you do find the right people to hang out with, a certain few who you really get along with and that you feel completely comfortable around, even though it took you a bit longer than most, you have an amazing group of new and old friends now that you find comfort in.

Secondly don't give up on any of your dreams, you will and have found a way to further some of your dreams and thats the best thing that you could have possibly done. 

Finally, everything turns out pretty okay, whilst I can't speak for what the future will hold, for now everything is pretty good and you are finally doing something that makes you feel happy and is leading you towards on of your big dreams.

If I could meet you face to face now and tell you all this I would. Some of these things I wish I knew back then, being able to know that some of the worries I held back then are not important anymore would have been a big help.

Just hold on for a little longer

Love 22 year old you.

What are some things that you would tell you younger self?

xx Kat

21 things I learnt in my 21st year.

So today is the official last day of being 21. Tomorrow I grow yet another year older.

So for the first day of May Madness I thought I would list 21 things I learnt over this past year. These things have changed me. And I though I would share them with you.

1. Pulling an all nighter before a performance day is a horrible idea and is something that should never be done.

2. Essay are not as scary as I thought they were in high school, especially if you have a week or so to write them, with your own notes.

3. Living out of home for the first time teaches you many useful skills.

4. When food shopping, don't spend it all on snacks.

5. Also don't spend all your money on items that aren't food.

6. Organisation is the key to getting things done on time.

7. To-do lists are a life saver.

8. Whenever possible wear comfortable shoes/clothes.

9. Try not to get drunk for fun very often. This usually leads to injury and sadness.

10. Don't over highlight notes.

11. Craft is a good form of procrastination. So go crazy and paint the life out of, or into, as many things as possible.

12. Being sick sucks when there is work that needs to be done.

13. Take less 'sick' days, you are more productive when this doesn't happen.

14. Those people in your life that suck at being nice/a friend/ helpful, are not important enough to worry about. 

15. Worrying less is better for you.

16. But worrying seems to be a big thing these days, as well as stressing about everything.

17. Surrounding yourself with people who make you smile is the best thing ever.

18. Never let anyone question what makes you happy.

19. Find people that make you soul shine, they are the people who should be your friends.

20. Living with people you get along with is so much better than living with people you don't get along with.

21. Find the things that make you happy and use them when you are feeling sad or down.

What are some important lessons you learnt over the past year?

xx Kat

Your own happiness

I have talked about happiness multiple times on this blog because I feel that it is an important topic. It's something that I struggle with frequently and it's something that I feel is important to talk about.

Over the past couple of days I have been questioning my happiness. Over thinking every small inch of my life and wondering if I have made the right choices. It has been keeping me up at night and has stopped me from enjoying things of recent. 

It's when these types of questions are swimming around in my brain that I lose hope and passion. And this eats me up inside, causing doubt and stress. Even the things that make me happy can't cheer me up.

But I want you all to know is that there is always hope, there is always a silver lining. There is always a second side to that coin. Always remember that.

Never lose hope.

I have decided that from this month I will be doing a monthly happiness blog post. Whether that's sharing happy moments, giving you ideas on cheering up, sharing with you my personal cheering up methods (which there are a lot of) and just being here to let you know that there is always hope. I hope to always be here for you.

I will most likely write these posts when I am having a bad day, as a way to cheer myself up.

What are some of the things that cheer you up? 

xx Kat

March rewind 2015

It honestly feels like March flew by. 

I gathered freebies at my university's O'Week, bought all of my required books, started classes, went to on campus parties and spent some quality time with my friends and new roommates.

I have already spent endless hours studying, or really procrastinating, and have managed to get through my first four weeks, of my second year, without any mishap.

I started to decorate my bedroom on campus and even started a few personal projects. somehow managing to balance everything smoothly and not feel swamped at the same time.

I put together three different costumes, for three different themed parties and managed to get lost on the drive to one of them.

I spent time at uni and away from uni hanging out with the amazing friends I have and bonded with my four new roommates for the year. I even came up with some grand ideas and plans, that I now need to act upon.

Netflix has also arrived in Australia, so that can only mean more hours of procrastination lie ahead.

I hope everyone is having a good easter break, whether you celebrate or not. I personally am back at home for a week on holidays.

xx Kat